and I didn't post.
So much going on that this was the thing to go. But it really needs to not be the thing to go. I really do need to express myself more in this way.
So, a quick update for those who may not know. Tried for and didn't get an apartment. I'm in the process of trying again. Have been formally accepted into Metro State. I have an email address there and everything! I go next week to take a math test on Tuesday. (Thanks Bob for the text book. It giving me a lot to study!) And then on Thursday, I sign up for classes, learn about the campus, and meet with an adviser. Work has been crazy! Normally you do maybe 1 or 2 annuals in a month....I've done 3 in the last 3 weeks...and 2 more are scheduled for this week! YIKES! 5 annuals in 4 weeks! But my boss has been great about giving me extra paperwork time so I can get it all done. So I am a happy camper at work!
Hard to believe an entire month can be reduced to a paragraph....lots more happened. Some happy (a wedding--a visit from a nephew), some sad (only one visit with Curt, changes in a relationship). It was an odd month to say the least. But I think...overall, it was good.
I feel stronger for having lived through it. And I think....I'll need that strength for July. ;)
This week--7 dogs, 6 more days, 5 overnight visitors, 4 days at home alone, 3 things i must remember to do with the pool, 2 cats, and 1 very tired human. And that is just at home!
Outside of home...5 days of work, 4 hours of meetings at college, 3 extra paperwork hours, 2 annual meetings, and the same 1 very tired human!
So for those of you who read this and pray...please ask God to give a bit of extra stamina this week. :)
And hopefully...as I'll be home a lot later this week....I'll be able to write again.
Sunday, July 6, 2008
Monday, June 2, 2008
worry
So I am trying very hard not to worry....
about what will be decided about the apartment I've applied for....
about what I will do if turned down....
about some small, but nagging physical problems that I know I need to see my Dr. about, but can't find a time to do so...
about my continued mental health while living here with M&D
about my dogs' health due to their weight (problems caused by M)
and just this overall sense of dread I've been getting of late. :(
So for the few faithful readers of this....
Prayer would be greatly appreciated.
And if by chance you see me this week...and I'm looking a bit ragged....know you are not the reason. I am.
about what will be decided about the apartment I've applied for....
about what I will do if turned down....
about some small, but nagging physical problems that I know I need to see my Dr. about, but can't find a time to do so...
about my continued mental health while living here with M&D
about my dogs' health due to their weight (problems caused by M)
and just this overall sense of dread I've been getting of late. :(
So for the few faithful readers of this....
Prayer would be greatly appreciated.
And if by chance you see me this week...and I'm looking a bit ragged....know you are not the reason. I am.
Friday, May 30, 2008
The Eucharist
So yes...this is becoming more and more a religious themed blog...deal with it. :)
But this past week has been an odd one. And one where the topic of the Eucharist keeps appearing. It's shown up in readings, in church service (Sunday was the feast of Corpus Christi), the music from the service, and just in talking with friends and family.
And Fr. F told the story of the boy and his dad out camping...Son wakes up in the middle of the night, wakes dad and asks what the stars are saying to him. Father starts to wax philosophical...talking about astronomy, theology. Then asks what they say to the son. Son replies.."They tell me someone stole our tent!"
Fr. F called this a "DUH" moment. And went on to say that as long time Catholics we need to remember that the Eucharist, while something we do each week and maybe not something we think much about, should be a DUH moment. A moment when we see it for all that it is. Our Savior, giving himself to us, to become a part of us, and we of Him. And yes, it's easy to just partake each week and not really think about it...but it is the obvious answer we must remember.
And last weekend...I was truly grateful for all the Eucharist had to give me. I really needed to hear again how this is the cornerstone of faith. That Jesus came down from heaven, by the power of the Holy Spirit, was born of a virgin and became a man. All so he could suffer, die and be buried and rise again to give us a chance at eternal life. Such perfect, amazing love.
But this past week has been an odd one. And one where the topic of the Eucharist keeps appearing. It's shown up in readings, in church service (Sunday was the feast of Corpus Christi), the music from the service, and just in talking with friends and family.
And Fr. F told the story of the boy and his dad out camping...Son wakes up in the middle of the night, wakes dad and asks what the stars are saying to him. Father starts to wax philosophical...talking about astronomy, theology. Then asks what they say to the son. Son replies.."They tell me someone stole our tent!"
Fr. F called this a "DUH" moment. And went on to say that as long time Catholics we need to remember that the Eucharist, while something we do each week and maybe not something we think much about, should be a DUH moment. A moment when we see it for all that it is. Our Savior, giving himself to us, to become a part of us, and we of Him. And yes, it's easy to just partake each week and not really think about it...but it is the obvious answer we must remember.
And last weekend...I was truly grateful for all the Eucharist had to give me. I really needed to hear again how this is the cornerstone of faith. That Jesus came down from heaven, by the power of the Holy Spirit, was born of a virgin and became a man. All so he could suffer, die and be buried and rise again to give us a chance at eternal life. Such perfect, amazing love.
Sunday, May 25, 2008
The Our Father (Lord's Prayer) in Latin
So here it is...in the common way of writing Latin today.
PATER NOSTER, qui es in caelis, sanctificetur nomen tuum. Adveniat regnum tuum. Fiat voluntas tua, sicut in caelo et in terra. Panem nostrum quotidianum da nobis hodie, et dimitte nobis debita nostra sicut et nos dimittimus debitoribus nostris. Et ne nos inducas in tentationem, sed libera nos a malo. Amen.
But this is not the way it would have been written two thousand years ago. There were no punctionuation marks. No capital letters. No spaces. More like this....
paternosterquiesincaelissanctificeturnomentuumadveniatregnumtuumfiatvoluntastuasicutincaeloet interrapanemnostrumquotidianumdanobishodieetdimittenobisdebitanostrasicutetnosdimittimusdebitoribus nostrisetnenosinducasintentationemsedliberanosamaloamen
Why is that important? And why am I even mentioning it? Well...Curt is learning Greek and Latin. And saying the rosary in Latin...Which includes the Our Father. So we were discussing it. and the exact meanings of some of the words versus the way we've translated them over the years.
One of the words/phrases he thinks was a poor translation was "Daily bread". He feels it should really have more of a emphasis...like that which we must have to continue to live. That at the time of writing people thought food was more important than water or air to survival...which we know now is not the case. But the idea of that which we must have to continue to live...sounds an awful lot to me like what Jesus said to the Samaritan woman at Jacob's well. That the water of the well would only last for a short time...but he could give her water so she would never thirst again.
Another phrase we spoke about was the "Forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us, and lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil."
Curt mentioned that he was talking his way thru this with his priest....because he felt after reading this that the wording was more like "You forgive us when we do wrong in the same way that we forgive people who hurt us." Which lead Curt to think...Wow...I'd better do a better job of forgiving people. So he now has a new thing to pray for each night. He picks the one person from the day that he is most frustrated with...and prays for them.
And as to the last...Curt said he felt like the translation should have read..."And do not cause us to be tested, but save us from the Evil." More like asking a teacher to not give the final in a class, lest we fail it utterly. And asking for protection from the terrible Evil one roaming the earth.
I kind of like these translations. Gives me lots to think on.....
PATER NOSTER, qui es in caelis, sanctificetur nomen tuum. Adveniat regnum tuum. Fiat voluntas tua, sicut in caelo et in terra. Panem nostrum quotidianum da nobis hodie, et dimitte nobis debita nostra sicut et nos dimittimus debitoribus nostris. Et ne nos inducas in tentationem, sed libera nos a malo. Amen.
But this is not the way it would have been written two thousand years ago. There were no punctionuation marks. No capital letters. No spaces. More like this....
paternosterquiesincaelissanctificeturnomentuumadveniatregnumtuumfiatvoluntastuasicutincaeloet interrapanemnostrumquotidianumdanobishodieetdimittenobisdebitanostrasicutetnosdimittimusdebitoribus nostrisetnenosinducasintentationemsedliberanosamaloamen
Why is that important? And why am I even mentioning it? Well...Curt is learning Greek and Latin. And saying the rosary in Latin...Which includes the Our Father. So we were discussing it. and the exact meanings of some of the words versus the way we've translated them over the years.
One of the words/phrases he thinks was a poor translation was "Daily bread". He feels it should really have more of a emphasis...like that which we must have to continue to live. That at the time of writing people thought food was more important than water or air to survival...which we know now is not the case. But the idea of that which we must have to continue to live...sounds an awful lot to me like what Jesus said to the Samaritan woman at Jacob's well. That the water of the well would only last for a short time...but he could give her water so she would never thirst again.
Another phrase we spoke about was the "Forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us, and lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil."
Curt mentioned that he was talking his way thru this with his priest....because he felt after reading this that the wording was more like "You forgive us when we do wrong in the same way that we forgive people who hurt us." Which lead Curt to think...Wow...I'd better do a better job of forgiving people. So he now has a new thing to pray for each night. He picks the one person from the day that he is most frustrated with...and prays for them.
And as to the last...Curt said he felt like the translation should have read..."And do not cause us to be tested, but save us from the Evil." More like asking a teacher to not give the final in a class, lest we fail it utterly. And asking for protection from the terrible Evil one roaming the earth.
I kind of like these translations. Gives me lots to think on.....
and once again...
it's been a month. :P
But then...soooo much has happened. And this took last priority. But soon...I hope to have more time on my hands. Lots more. Which would be sooooo nice.
Work is going really well. Had my first annual meeting. Went fine. 2nd is tomorrow. Have written one annual (for the meeting tomorrow) and have a second well underway, even though that meeting isn't until late June.
Meanwhile....I found an apt. I like. :) In an area I'm comfortable with. Which allows dogs/cats. :)
With any luck...move in date in June 7. Nice.
Still waiting on college stuff to start in earnest.
But then...soooo much has happened. And this took last priority. But soon...I hope to have more time on my hands. Lots more. Which would be sooooo nice.
Work is going really well. Had my first annual meeting. Went fine. 2nd is tomorrow. Have written one annual (for the meeting tomorrow) and have a second well underway, even though that meeting isn't until late June.
Meanwhile....I found an apt. I like. :) In an area I'm comfortable with. Which allows dogs/cats. :)
With any luck...move in date in June 7. Nice.
Still waiting on college stuff to start in earnest.
Thursday, April 24, 2008
May 12 :)
So on May 12, I will change job titles. Same company, same clients....new responsibilities and new benefits!
I'll become a case manager. I'll have a case load. (specific clients whose well being at work I am responsible for!) And I'll have to do paperwork. :P
But it means a 20% increase in hourly pay, 2 1/2 additional hours of work each week, additional time off, more holiday pay. :) So I guess...it balances out.
Lots to do before then. People to meet, files to read, paperwork to fill out, forms to get signed and turned in. But I am so excited. I feel like I am accomplishing something good with my life. Something I've not felt in way too long.
I'll become a case manager. I'll have a case load. (specific clients whose well being at work I am responsible for!) And I'll have to do paperwork. :P
But it means a 20% increase in hourly pay, 2 1/2 additional hours of work each week, additional time off, more holiday pay. :) So I guess...it balances out.
Lots to do before then. People to meet, files to read, paperwork to fill out, forms to get signed and turned in. But I am so excited. I feel like I am accomplishing something good with my life. Something I've not felt in way too long.
Friday, April 18, 2008
Rule of my life
So I subscribe to a list serve that is a discussion between Evangelicals (or former ones--:) ) and Orthodox Christians. One of the regular posters puts up a post called "A Word from the Desert" A few days ago...this was the post.
A brother went to see an anchorite and as he was
leaving said to him, "Forgive me, Abba, for having
taken you away from your rule." But the other answered
him, "My rule is to refresh you and to send you away
in peace."
And it dawned on me...if I wanted to make a rule (way to live) as direction for my life...it would be the same as this anchorite. In all my relationships...friends, family, work, acquaintances, whatever...I want my prayer to be..."Lord, let me refresh the people I come into contact with this day and send them away in peace."
It may not sound like much...but how many of us yearn for peace? How many people need to feel refreshed?
Clearly this is not a new problem. Nor a specifically Orthodox idea. :) The prayer of St. Francis speaks of it too..
I thought at one point that it was something more Jesus spoke of on the mount when he said
"Blessed are the peacemakers for they shall be called the children of God" But I am starting to think that the peacemakers are not those who stop wars, but those who strive daily to bring peace and refreshment to any weary and dry people they encounter.
So my prayer today is....
May God send you peace and refreshment this day. If you come into contact with me and need refreshing, may I be the spring where you can find to water a dry and weary soul. If peace is what you seek, and you encounter me, may God use me to help you find what you are searching for.
A brother went to see an anchorite and as he was
leaving said to him, "Forgive me, Abba, for having
taken you away from your rule." But the other answered
him, "My rule is to refresh you and to send you away
in peace."
And it dawned on me...if I wanted to make a rule (way to live) as direction for my life...it would be the same as this anchorite. In all my relationships...friends, family, work, acquaintances, whatever...I want my prayer to be..."Lord, let me refresh the people I come into contact with this day and send them away in peace."
It may not sound like much...but how many of us yearn for peace? How many people need to feel refreshed?
Clearly this is not a new problem. Nor a specifically Orthodox idea. :) The prayer of St. Francis speaks of it too..
- Lord, make me an instrument of Thy peace;
- where there is hatred, let me sow love;
- where there is injury, pardon;
- where there is doubt, faith;
- where there is despair, hope;
- where there is darkness, light;
- and where there is sadness, joy.
- O Divine Master,
- grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
- to be understood, as to understand;
- to be loved, as to love;
- for it is in giving that we receive,
- it is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
- and it is in dying that we are born to Eternal Life.
- Amen.
I thought at one point that it was something more Jesus spoke of on the mount when he said
"Blessed are the peacemakers for they shall be called the children of God" But I am starting to think that the peacemakers are not those who stop wars, but those who strive daily to bring peace and refreshment to any weary and dry people they encounter.
So my prayer today is....
May God send you peace and refreshment this day. If you come into contact with me and need refreshing, may I be the spring where you can find to water a dry and weary soul. If peace is what you seek, and you encounter me, may God use me to help you find what you are searching for.
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